“Daddy” and OTK

Well, after some extended tenseness and much discussion about O/ourselves, O/our relationship, and O/our expectations, Master and I are doing very well again. At least, so far, only time will tell if it continues, but I have a feeling it will be.

The longer Master and I are together, and the more and more W/we explore O/our/mine/His desires, it seems to me that the more W/we slip into things W/we never thought about or discussed.

For instance, the more W/we explore in O/our relationship, the more of a Daddy/babygirl dynamic it seems. Now, the first time I realized it was heading in that direction, I made a very squinchy and unpleasant face – you know, the one where you’ve smelled something very sour at the same time as you’re being bratty? Yeah, that one. Honestly, I still rather feel that way about that Daddy/babygirl dynamic, as far as being personally involved in it. Firstly, I would never ever want to call Master something like “Daddy” – ugh, the idea almost makes me sick.

Maybe it’s just because I have such issues with my own father – what with having absolutely no respect for the “man”. I think that’s probably the only real issue I have with it.

But the age play aspect in and of itself has also bothered me. You see, Master is a year younger than me. Now, He doesn’t often act it. But I’ve always been engaged in relationships with men anywhere from 6 – 10 years older than me; in my life, my relationship with Master is a definite anomaly.

And yet, as things go on with U/us, W/we move more towards age play with damn near every time W/we play. Although I will never, ever call Master “Daddy”, He already uses “babygirl” as an appellation more than any other name. Even more than “pet” or “treasure”.

Then, last night, He actually gave me an OTK spanking! Not only that, but He actually “pretended” to be punishing me for something! (It would have been nice had I known He was pretending; but W/we worked that out.)

It was freaking amazing. I think I am in love with it.

The deeper into this journey W/we get, the more I wonder what will show itself in the future to evolve from O/our relationship naturally, that I have previously said I would never, ever be interested in.

~ by beauteousthrall on April 25, 2009.